Today was a breakthrough of sorts for me. I went over to the house with Susan, and I didn't cry. We went through some stuff and I was OK. Tomorrow we're having a contractor come to the house to see about doing some remodeling. I hope I'm OK tomorrow.

Today, I'm feeling a tiny bit better. I know that tomorrow, I may have a meltdown again.

 

Tonight we went through some of Mom's things. Didn't throw anything out, but just started the process. She had so many little pairs of shoes. She liked to buy shoes. She had just bought a new pair in November when we went down to Evansville with John. We buried her in those. We buried her in new shoes and a new sweater. She would've liked that, I think. Went through some of her purses. She loved those Bed, Bath and Beyond coupons! We found several.

 

Took some of the funeral plants to work today. One planter went to Technical Services. The other will go downstairs by the entrance. They asked me if it would make me sad to have them around. I told them, no. I kind of like the idea, actually. There is already a big Norfolk Pine at the library that I took from Mom and Dad's a couple of years ago. It was one that they had been keeping for me since I came back from Chicago. So I see it every day and think of them.

 

Susie